I am getting tired of this...

I keep trying to build myself up... It is not my intention to alienate myself, or offend anybody... I have however no choice in this matter... I crave acceptance on very large scale, and I am unable to do much but develop myself in order to accept everything... This is my destiny, still struggling with it... To desire to be coddled is unbearable... They didn't let me fail. I understand, but it is too painful... Is this a mistake? It always has its course, and we can always complain about it... Is this free will?